Saturday, June 02, 2007

So Sorry...

I haven't posted in soooo long, and to be honest, this may be my last post for a while. I'm just tired. I'm tired of trying to keep my life together: work, home, school for Owen, therapies, fundraisiers, Mommy and Me...I feel as if I have no time for me anymore. All I want is an hour a day to be able to go for a walk, or a hike, and I find that I can't even fit that in anymore. It's as if my life is consumed by my life. And I can't blow off work, and I can't blow off home, so instead, I blow off "me time." But part of me time has been blogging, so I'm sorry to say, for now, it has to go. I just don't want to have another thing on my "to do" list, and at this point, it has become that. And don't get me wrong, I LOVE that I get so much time to spend with my kids, but that means we are playing outside, or at the park, or having a playdate, so I can't really blog. And one day, I will have all the time in the world to blog because my kids will be older. But for now, I give them the respect they deserve, which means, I am trying to spend that time playing with them.

There is so much to write about right now, that I even feel guilty signing off for a little while. But, I have to concentrate on my life. We just finished a video with Owen's yoga teacher (who specifically teaches kids with Down sydrome) and it was wonderful. She is putting a DVD together for parents of kids with DS. We shot the video here, I got the cameras from my company, and I called my former company for the lighting. Then, we had this great day. In return, Owen gets four months of free yoga with Lucia, and my husband and I get an hour of yoga with her, which has been great.

The next fundraiser for Down Syndrome Research and Treatment Foundation (www.dsrtf.org) has come together. We are doing a night at the Hollywood Bowl, in Los Angeles, on Tuesday, August 28, 2007. It will be a great event, and we are getting some great things donated for the event. If you want more information, go to the website (listed above). I really want to concentrate on getting some celebrities to the event, so that is another reason I need to streamline what is important to work on.

Also, I just turned 40. And I really thought I was pregnant last month. And I wasn't. It's been 7 months now since Tess weaned herself from breastfeeding, and we have been actively trying since then (she's 16 months), and we still have not gotten pregnant. I think it's over for me. As much as I would love to be pregnant again, I think God might just have other plans for me. I would love to have one more child, I guess I'm just not sure where they are going to come from, at this point. Maybe adoption...later.

I will update you all if I have a chance, but thank you for keeping up with my story. There are so many wonderful things going on with Owen, and my world of Down syndrome, that I can't wait to tell you when it really takes off and we have some celebrities involved. For now, whenever I meet someone who tells me how blessed I am, I can only answer "I know," and thank them for recognizing that.

Take care, everyone.