Stop the jealous thoughts

I just heard that another friend of mine is pregnant, after going through two rounds of IVF. I am happy for her, but there is a part of me that just wants to cry because I want to be pregnant again. After my miscarriage, she said to me, but at least you're getting pregnant, I'm not. Now, if we were keeping score, she has a beautiful, typical child who is five years old. I have a Down Syndrome child. In the books, I am the one who deserves to have another child because my first child is broken. So I don't understand why it's been nine months and nothing is happening. I know she really wants this pregnancy to succeed, and I hope it does, but I just wish I could not be so jealous of other people. I wish I could just be happy with my life and where I am at. But then I think about the whole IVF thing and I can't help but think it's cheating. I mean, women who couldn't get pregnant are getting pregnant, and I am being the dutiful person and trying it the old-fashioned way. For what? So I can say that I didn't go to any extreme lengths to get pregnant? Why am I trying to be so ethical?

I suppose it all washes out in the end. I really am happy for her, and I hope she carries the baby to term, because too many babies haven't made it and I gotta believe they are all up there somewhere just waiting to fly in on a cloud and make a home in someone's belly.